Full-Blown Suffering: My Fight Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden pain sprang behind my one eye. It was followed by quick shocks, similar to electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition often begin with intense discomfort behind one eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, excruciating pain around one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Still, the inability to organize life around erratic attacks took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical texts suggest unusual treatments for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the condition explain this.

In 1998, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She believes the dental profession still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidance on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive treatment alone. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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